We ended up harvesting 8 eggs. Only 4 of them were mature, and only 3 fertilized. Now we wait. WE have to wait 5 days post harvest to find out if any of them are genetically normal. This is almost worse than the TWW after the transfer.
I am sad. I am discouraged. I have a whole range of emotions, and it is so hard to not be pessimistic. It's hard to stay positive knowing how all the eggs and embryos in the past were bad (except Sir Chance). 1 out of 30 is NOT good odds, but no one has ever said I wasn't one to beat the odds. Just look at Sir Chance; the foremost RE in the country told me I would never carry a baby to term, even if we get a normal embryo, but we took the chance and here he is. The RE was completely shocked when I called him to discuss a second baby. Completely shocked we got an embryo, but even more shocked I was able to carry to (almost - 38 weeks) term. I'm pretty sure I have been depressed since the harvest and I learned we only had 3 fertilized eggs. It doesn't help I have been in more pain than I remember ever being in before. I finally broke down and called my ER today. I am going in tomorrow for an ultrasound to make sure I am not bleeding anywhere. The pain I am describing makes her thing I may have a little bleeding and there is blood filling up my abdomen. She suspects this because my pain meds are not working, I am still swollen, the pain is one sided, and my abdomen is hard (no, it's not from working out unfortunately).
So we wait. We wait the 5 days post harvest to find out if we have possible siblings for Sir Chance.
I will do my best to stay as positive as I can, it's just very hard, I think I am tired. I am glad this is our last try for a sibling. Unless we adopt, there will be no more biological siblings for Sir Chance....unless DH has children running around he doesn't know about! LOL
So know we wait....
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